Wednesday, October 21, 2009

It Begins

Tomorrow I leave again for the next set of infusions.

I'll let you in on a secret. I don't want to go.

I don't want to be cold for 2 weeks plus. I don't want the nasty rash. I don't want to feel like crap for the first week. And mostly, MOSTLY, I don't want to leave my family. I miss them already. And frankly, it's a little dull up there.

Morning - labs, infusion, while I read or whatever. Afternoons and evenings, seeing people, shopping, hanging out. It sounds fun. And it is. For the first week.

See, last time, I thought 2 weeks would be doable. And now I know. A weekend away from your family - good. 2 weeks - too long.

My husband says it'll be better - it'll seem shorter since I've done it before. He says it'll go by quickly, and the family and friends I'll catch up with will help me deal. He's nice. A bit delusional, but nice.

Of course, I have a choice, and I'm choosing to go. Because nothing would make me happier than saying "Remeber 2009? That was the year I was diabetic."

In conclusion, obviously I like to start sentences with the word 'and.'

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Another Low Day - Which is Good, Actually

Yesterday I woke up at 67. It stayed there most of the day. Each pre-meal was in the 70's (I hate how below 80 feels, don't you?) and I had 2 lows in the middle of the night. This morning - 72.

So today, I am taking my Lantus dose down to 8 units, see how that treats me for the next couple of days - to see if yesterday was an anomaly, or if it means my pancreas likes to work better.

Seriously, though, if the dose stays lower - and I don't see why it wouldn't - every other time I've reduced my insulin, it's stayed there, and done good things for me - this means I am close to HALF the insulin usage I was before. (That's both with the Novolog and the Lantus). With the next infusion scheduled to begin in 2 weeks, I am optimistic about my future.

I mean, low days don't feel so good, but I'm OK with it if they help my a1c and indicate possible cell regeneration. Of course, I never purposely go low. No way, man.

Also, I have split my Lantus does - one in the morning and one at night, (9 a.m. and 9 p.m.) and even though it means more shots, I like it better, so if I mess them up again and replace one with the other, I'm not taking too much Novolog. (I mean, yeah, it'll be more than I should, but it would be easier to fix). Of course, I am determined not to mix them up again. Too scary.

Does anyone else have to change their insulin ratios for different meals? It seems like at dinner, I have to use a tad more insulin per carbs than I do at breakfast/lunch. I wonder if the Lantus dose has worn off by then, but splitting it should have helped, and I've been split for a few months now. Of course, it could be completely due to the fact that after breakfast/lunch, I do stuff (exercise, clean the house, run errands, etc.) and once dinner is over, I'm all about curling up with a book or in front of the TV. Heaven forbid I be productive after 7 or 8 p.m.