I Don't Know HOW

I have decided I officially don't know how to be a diabetic who's not honeymooning.

(And no, I don't know that for a fact, but things have been all over the map, I'm not sick, it's the only explanation I can come up with, and I'm pretty sure the onglyza is doing nothing.)

Yesterday I had a low after I went walking, which I wasn't too surprised about, I walked longer than I planned to, and it was right after dinner, so my insulin was still very much in force.

So, I did what you do when you go low. I ate carbs. Came up nicely to 99.

An hour later I was 175, because apparently, you raise your blood sugar, and it just keeps going and going.

I'm tired of correcting - I'm worried I'm going to run out of needles before I can refill them. I guess I just have to learn to do this whole thing all over again - find the right combination of Lantus and the right ratio of Novolog/carbs. Fun times, my friends. Fuuuunnnnn tiiiiimmmessss....

Please Tell Me Why

Fasting this morning was 132. Not the best, but I decided not to beat myself up over it. But I was in a hurry, so I had eggs for breakfast. Eggs. No milk, no toast, no fruit, just eggs. And so I had no insulin.

At lunch I was 154.

Why would eggs cause my sugars to rise? Things have been so wacky lately, blood sugar wise, I'm fairly confident the honeymoon is over. I will find out for sure on Apr. 21, when I go in for my last visit for the study, and a mixed meal tolerance test is done. I'm kind of sad about it, but hey, I couldn't honeymoon forever, I guess, and it has been over 2 years.

I really do want to know, though. Why was I higher at lunch? Also, I think my a1c is going to suck. I'm not looking forward to it.

Seriously?

I am way too young and have had this disease way too short a time to be having neuropathy like this. Fingers, face, toes - burning, tingling, zinging weirdness.

Fasting this morning: 157. What the??? (For the record, I went to bed at 116)

I have worked out every day this week. If that's not helping, I am going to quit and stare out the window for the rest of my life. I mean, if bad sugars happen regardless of what I do, why should I do anything? Ah, fatalism.

Also, McDonald's tried to kill me by serving me regular Dr. Pepper instead of diet. I was mad, but boy that sip was tasty. If I ever get to choose my last meal, because, you know, I kill somebody, I am having lots and lots of sugar.

For the Record

My sugars are behaving beautifully again. I do not know what caused them to freak out for those couple of weeks -and I have discovered that nothing puts me in a worse mood than seeing 180 as a fasting - but they're all back to "normal" now. My theories:

1. I WAS mildly sick and didn't have other symptoms, but my body was fighting something, causing the sugars to rise.

2. The honeymoon was ending but putting me on onglyza DID cause a c-peptide response, causing better control.

3. The disease was just reminding me that often it doesn't make sense.

I'm going with #1, with a dash of #3, but you never know. I guess it's a good thing I didn't up my insulin after all.

In other news, Breyer's carb smart vanilla ice cream and diet root beer actually makes a pretty decent root beer float. That's exciting.

I still hate my One Touch monitor, but I've stopped throwing it across the room and swearing at it. Baby steps, people.

In Which I Use a LOT of CAPS

About a week ago, my sugars started going wack - a - doo. And by "wack - a - doo", I mean "high for no discernible reason." Middle of the night- 230? Wha? I thought maybe I was getting sick, but so far, no symptoms of sickness have manifest themselves.

So today at the endo I asked him if I should change insulin usage, and he said no, because I would go too low. He didn't run an a1c because I had one in January. Dude, I really think I need just a titch more, but apparently pre-meals in the 120's (and, um, 160s!!) don't bother him too much. I do like him a lot, but he is SO hypo-phobic, and I'm a little hyper-phobic. (post meals are too high!) He's seen too much, I think, and so he is very reluctant to up insulin levels. I think it might be the honeymoon ending, but that just makes me sad.

And then - let the experimenting begin! - he put me on a type 2 drug "onglyza" to see if that helps stimulate a c-peptide response. We shall see what we shall see.

He was FASCINATED by the fact that I went hypo on antibiotics. He had never heard of that before, although he said some RA patients respond to antibiotics for no reason that the medical community can think of - they just do, but he hadn't heard of any diabetics responding that way. He is pondering it, I guess.

In other news, my insurance company "forced" me to switch monitors, and I left my Freestyle (which I had grown to really like since they switched new test strips) to One Touch. I tried to test my blood when I got home. No dice. Error, error, error, error, ERROR!!!! The error message translated - the test strip didn't have enough blood. I thought it was possibly due to the fact that I couldn't feel the lancet poking me at all. So I called them, and they "walked me through testing my blood" because apparently I am a moron who doesn't know how to use a monitor, but in the end, they are sending me a new lancing device. The worst part is - they want me to CHANGE LANCETS EVERY TIME!!!!

Them: It cuts down on infection to use a sterile one every time.

Me (in my head) : It makes you more money for us to use one every time.

Me: (out loud): It's a pain in the butt, especially when you have to test 6-8 times a day. It's REALLY annoying.

Them: Well, you do what you want, but this is what we recommend.

Me (in my head): Well, duh, I will do what I want, but if they don't POKE ME, it doesn't really matter how many I go through, now does it?

Me (out loud): Are these cheaper or something, because these are not the same lancets that were sent to me when I got a free One Touch monitor a while back.

Them: We changed them so there is less discomfort.

Ah, less discomfort. What a noble goal. But seriously, poking yourself should hurt a little, I mean, we're trying to get BLOOD OUT, not get ERROR MESSAGES DUE TO LACK OF BLOOD. Of course, multiple error messages just means I have to use more test strips and lancets, which probably isn't their goal at all. I must have gone through 6 just trying to get one reading. That lew lancing device better be a LOT better. And since I haven't hit my deductible yet, that little blood sugar reading probably cost me roughly 10 dollars.

Seriously, my old monitor, I just changed the lancet when I felt it getting dull, every couple of days. I seriously filled the scrip twice or something absurdly small, because I got 100/box. *whine* I just want to keep using my old monitor - stupid insurance.

I think I have issues with change. POSSIBLY.

I also am forced to do mail order prescription if I want to stay on Novolog. Which isn't a big deal, but is a pain in the tuckus for everyone involved, except UHC, I guess.

Also, this week, I saw the gyn (Mon) and had a mammogram on Tuesday. It's been a medically intense week. Maybe I'll hit the chiro tomorrow just to round it out.